Once upon a time, a few mistakes ago..

Should I face such an insoportable reality?
Or should I keep living with some happy lies?
What the hell I'm supossed to do now?

I can't ask advise to anybody.

I can feel this lonely pain even through my bones.

There is people dieing every day. Loved people, strong people, determinated people.
I know it is so stupid to feel this and think the things I'm thinking now, and it isn't fair for all that people.. You really should just take my life and give it to somebody who wants it, I really want it to happen. Please? I'm giving up.